Elegance and Spirit

   Ever since I was a little girl, I loved horses. I don't know how it started, it just began and never ended. All I know is that my dad was a big part of it and he gave me the chance experience horsemanship. I got my first pony when I was five. Got my first full size horse at eight.
    My favorite breed is an Arabian. My horse that I had since I was eight was an Arabian. She was beautiful and strong hearted but sweet. That's why I called her Beauty. Sadly I gave her a way two years ago, because I couldn't afford to keep her anymore. I still hope that one day I will have horses again. I miss riding. It something everyone should experience. When you are on top of a horse it feels as if you are on top of the world were no one can get to you. Your protection is the horse.


Me and Beauty - 2011  Horses are very elegant creatures. They seem to have this certain love and magic that can't be explained. They're strong. but so delicate. I can go on and on. They are magnificent. 

Engagement

  I don't know if he reads blog post or not, but it really doesn't matter.. A friend of mine that I knew in elementry school got recently engaged. In a way I'm surprised at how quikly he got engaged. I had a crush on him in high school. I told him too. Through Facebook, I believe. It was really stupid, because eversince then it was really weird. I thought he got scared off by me. But it seemed okay in the halls of school. I'm over the crush now. But I still think about it alot. He moved senior year and I haven't seen or talk to him since. I will never make the mistake of telling someone I like them back, without me being really sure he likes me back. I do really wish my friend happiness and hope to see him in person again. I know now that if it was another way around we wouldn't be good together anyway, even if I thought we were.

My Best Friends

I have three best friends that are always there when I need them. They give me heartfelt advice when I need it and many fun times. They don't hang out with eachother, since I met them in three different places. I use to think when I was little I used to think you could only have one best friend. But I doon'y now. It's very hard for me to make friend since I am shy.

Chandel~
I met Chandel in second grade. Our parents and teacher was very involved in making this friendship. Once we started hanging out. We hit it off and been friends since and now it's been 14 years.. Most of my favorite childhood memories are with her. She moved to Idaho when we were in 5th grade and is now currently in Southern California, which is about 10 hours away from were I live. I miss her dearly..

Grace~
Grace and I met in high school I was a sophmore, she was a Junior. We had art class together, I was a week late in the year and we had a sub, so she helped me get what I needed. She is a girl who loves the outdoors and works for Calfire. She may be only 4'11, but she is one tough cookie. She also likes to dress girly also. I always feel good when we hang out. Grace is a true friend.

Ashley~
Oh my sweet Ashley... I've known her since I was 5 and she was 4. We have been in the same congregation together eversince. She always drew me pictures and had the same long dark hair. It was only in recend years we really started to hang out again.  I don't this it will ever change. Ashley loves different cultures and says she should of been born in the 19th century with Jane Austan. I can tell Ashley everything and she doesn't mind. Sometimes I really wonder if she gets sick of the things I tell her of what I am feeling. She is very special to me and my sister.

Update!

I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I just been so preoccupied with school work, housework, and such..  Well it's almost the end of the month now and year. I am almost done with the semester. Which I am pretty excited about. Today, I had a job interview at my old elementary and middle school. So I hope it turns out well. Also it was raining pretty heavy today. :/ Anyways I hope it clears up. I also have been reading The Hunger Games. I heard that it is much sadder than the movie, but to me they are very similar. Of course the book has more detail. I do like it so far. Im gonna read the other books too.

Italy

I would love to travel to Italy, especially Rome. The architecture and sites look so amazing and historic. It's also a romantic environment. I hope one day I can go there. There really isn't a specific site I want to see there, I just want to try and see all. I hope that if I get married we can both travel a lot together but if not that's ok. The only thing that would be hard for me to travel a lot would be my pets. I want to always have animals, but it would be hard to leave them. So maybe just a few vacations here and there. But anyway back to Italy. Yes, that is the main place I want to visit. I also want to got to Barcelona, Spain, London, Tahiti, Hawaii, and New York.

Good Evening

I'm sorry I haven't posted in awhile. I've been very busy with school and enjoying some time with one of my best friends. Right now Im about ready for bed since I've been in the books for about 10 hours now. After school I ended up doing some school work. But anyways, my life isn't that exciting at the moment or not much has been new. :( But I'm happy that I'm doing alright! Macie is already asleep :o (my yorkie) And I think she so adorable when she is. But what can I can she's adorable all the time. She makes little grunting noises that are so cute.
I guess where Im at its suppose to rain tomorrow. That makes me sad. I dont like dark clouds and rain. Its too depressing. It wasn't that bad today. But it did get colder after I got home. Thinking about it now. I do have an idea of what I'll say next time. But I'll do that later.. Good night for now!

Dreams and Love

Last night I had a dream that was very personal to me. I'm not gonna give all the details, but sometimes it's nice to get it out of my chest. More details will be in my diary which of course you can't read.. mwahh.. Just Kidding! Anyways, so to my surprise I had an interesting dream about a certain person I like. Lets call him, X. So X comes back from the big city of Charming land (Go with me on this..) And tells me that he thinks its time to come "out". I was like WHAT?? I didn't know we had a relationship.... So I guess he was really happy to see me. Which makes my day.. I guess we were together after that.. There were so many things going on. Serious I tell you I have sooo many many confusing dreams. They are just all over the place. Do you have fascinating dreams? Please feel free to share them with me.. Guess you could say that I want a love life.. lol

 

Roxy

So today I was thinking about my little yorkie that past away 3 years ago. She would of been 5 years old today. She died of a liver shunt that is very common in small dogs genetically.  She was just 2 years old. Eventhough I didn't have her that long, I grew very close to her. She was my baby. She was so sweet to everyone, and was adored. I cried for two weeks. I guess it was a worning sign when we first brought her home because she was having seizures. Usually a liver shunt closes when the pupp is born but it didn't with Roxy. She also could of been an imbredded puppy. So I advised you if you buy a puppy from a breeder or not so good inviorment.. e.g. Like I did! And a puppy has seizures, get it medical help asap..

To the the one thats falling over me...

This is for the one that is falling over me, I'm thinking of you...
 
            I'm standing in the center of the room, I'm watchin' boys follow girls perfume, all is as it should be I assume, except for the distance between me and you, you're standing as a flower on a wall, the night is still but we're about to fall, and all the names that brought us here simply fade away,
              Who you are is falling over me, Who you are is everything I need, I'm hoping, I'm waiting, I'm praying you are the one, I'm hoping, I'm waiting, I'm praying you are the one,
               I can't believe that night turned into today, I used a line you were suppose to say, and all the names that brought us here are now we have to thank,

              If you want, I will wait, I will follow, I'm here to stay, as long as we're promised tomorrow I promise you today.. I'll wait, I'll wait,
               Who you are is falling over me, Who you are is everything I need, I'm hoping, I'm waiting, I'm praying you are the one, you are the one....
                                                                                                  "Falling Over Me"
                                                                                                                    By: Demi Lovato

A Beautiful Day!

Hey Everyone!
November is here.. And it is such a beautiful day.

                              (Peace and Love)

I really am not excited for the rain and cold, but I am glad its a new month. Time for a fresh start. I just love the sun right now. It was raining yesterday, which was a little depressing. But I dont care about that now. Sometimes I wish I can be brilliant at anything. Feel Beautiful! Self- esteem isn't my strongest suit. The last I post about being inspired by Demi Lovato. I also want to share of someone else who ispires me. Vanessa Hudgens.. Yes, the girl from High School Musical. She is absolutely gorgeous. She's like a fashion icon to me, and not only by her singing. So I hope everyone has a great day and is inspired by something beautiful. For me it's the beautiful sunny day :)

<3Sandra
p.s always dream ;D

Love DEMI!

Love Her!

Demi is such a beautiful girl inside and out. I love her music and personality. She is also a great singer. She inspires me..

November and disabilities

I can not believe it will soon be November, not only is the year almost up but the school semester along. I pretty excited about that. I am also excited because my friend Luke is coming home from New York. He has been gone since June. He will be coming back on the 27th. I haven't talked to him in a bit, but I hope his shoulder is healing well. He took a fall down there and teared his rotator cuff. Ouch! I'm pretty fortunate to not break or tear anything in my 21 years of life. I do have a perminent disability called Cerebral Palsy. I was was diagnosed this when I was a baby. I had I guess you can say brain himirge when I was born at 7 weeks premature that affected the left side of my body.
 Needless to say I was in the hospital for the first month of my life. I only am physicially semi un functional on my left side. My brain doesn't automatcally tell my arm and leg to respond. I have to THINK about it. So it sometimes tenses up. But I think I did mention something about my CP before in a previous post.
 Back to November...

   So ya, its gonna start getting cold and I am not looking forward to that. I can't wait to see my friend. Well I guess I'm gonna go to bed. My Girls (Yorkies- Macie and Ellie) I dont have any kids ;) lol are already asleep and I want to get to my book. I'm reading the 4th book of Anne of Green Gables, called Anne of Windy Poplars..
Good Night~

Not very interesting

 So basically I didn't do much today. I stood home and worked around the house and watch Netflix. ("more on the Netflix" ;) ) I mostly been day dreaming at times then doing anything else, mostly at night when I'm going to bed. Macie and Ellie were my companions of the day. They are my two yorkies. Recently my 10 year old yorkie Rocky passed way. I miss him so much. I had him since I was 11 and he was 6 weeks old. Well enough of that we'll see what going on another time..
See ya!

What every girl wants to hear....

My favorite quote from this book and and movie. Made me fall for Zac Efron all over again. ;)

Life without dance..

I have been dancing since I was 13 years old at California Dance Company. Although I don't do ballet, I love the above picture. I love any type of dance. It's a wonderful feeling to be graceful and show every emotion through dance. I currently dance hip hop and jazz, but in the near future I would like to take Ballet and Lyrical. Also ballroom and latin ballroom. If I didn't have a disablity I would probably do more and attend an art school but I have mild Cerebral Palsy, so it's hard to do everything that a normal dancer would do. I just do my best. If I wasn't able to do dance there would be no real physical activity in my life that interest me. So I'm thankful for the ability to what I can do. Those who have seen me dance think I'm quite good.

How Can I Tell You

The most recent song I wrote....
                                                How Can I Tell You?
                                       
                                                         Oh.. Whoa
I'm used of keeping my feelings to myself, and it hurts so bad to keep them in.. Everytime I see you my heart just stops, and my mind goes blank, All I hear is the footsteps you are taking right in front of me,
                                                   (Chorus)
Everytime I see you, I dream that you'd say the words I want to hear, I've been falling from the start, I just want to tell you now, I'm afraid of distruction, Oh How Can I Tell You?

I couldn't believe when I found out myself, that this happening, it feels so complicated, and sometimes I argue with myself, If I told you now then my conscience would then freak out, Then I'd feel regret
                                                         (Chorus)
And it goes on and on, and on..
Instead of letting it all out, I always kept it in, I guess thats what it's like to have a sudden crush, You are my sudden rush, Oh how can I tell you of what I feel...?
                                                         (Chorus)
Oh how can I tell you?

Dear Jesse

     Jesse McCartney has been part of my life since I was 13 years old. I am now 21. Or you could say since I was eight. I just didnt realize it until I was 13. This is because when I was eight Jesse was part of the boy band Dreamstreet. They weren't as popular as NSYNC or Backstreet Boys but I knew who they were. I actually liked Jesse the best than too. It wasn't until I first heard Jesse's first single Beautiful Soul on my That's So Raven CD, and reading about him in Tiger Beat Magazine. I eventually became a big fan of his after that. I've gone to two concerts feat. Him and Jordin Sparks. He is an amazing performer and doesnt lip syn like most artist do now a days.
         Like most fans I have fantasized meeting him and also singing with him. This is why I am also going to share with you a song I wrote for Jesse. I am not like most fans who would be obsessive over a star, they are human too. Anyways here is Dear Jesse. It was also inspired by Britney Spears' "Dear Diary."

Dear Jesse
By: Sandra Cruz

Dear Jesse..

I've been waiting for a day, when you lay your eyes on me..
This is all I have to say, you kept my dreams alive..
Just hearing your name makes me cry,
because you don't know whats inside my heart..
Every day I see you smile, You seem so happy,
A beautiful soul to me...
So let me be the one..

Dear Jesse,
my feelings are so strong,
I try to push them away..
So can I have a clue,
And I wonder, Will this ever go away..
Jesse can I be more than a fan,
yeah yeah
Can we have something more?

Jesse understand there is so much that I can do,
My heart starts to ache when I think of you,
I don't want to seem so deperate, but I can't help but be,
Jesse, I'm waiting for a day when I can be so much more..
than your fan...

INTRODUCTION

   Writing for me tends to get things out in the open and relieves the things that is on my mind. I also tend too get inspired by things and modivated to write a poam, song, or story. The only problem is that at most times I get busy with other stuff and have to come back to it. This happens a lot when I'm in the middle of a song or story. Like right now I am in the middle of two storys/novels, one in the works, and a song that I can't finish. I will post the song soon. I also keep a diary. It helps me to release the things that are bottled up in my mind when I can't tell anyone else.
              Anyways, I you will enjoy my blog page and I look forward to your comments...