Love DEMI!

Love Her!

Demi is such a beautiful girl inside and out. I love her music and personality. She is also a great singer. She inspires me..

November and disabilities

I can not believe it will soon be November, not only is the year almost up but the school semester along. I pretty excited about that. I am also excited because my friend Luke is coming home from New York. He has been gone since June. He will be coming back on the 27th. I haven't talked to him in a bit, but I hope his shoulder is healing well. He took a fall down there and teared his rotator cuff. Ouch! I'm pretty fortunate to not break or tear anything in my 21 years of life. I do have a perminent disability called Cerebral Palsy. I was was diagnosed this when I was a baby. I had I guess you can say brain himirge when I was born at 7 weeks premature that affected the left side of my body.
 Needless to say I was in the hospital for the first month of my life. I only am physicially semi un functional on my left side. My brain doesn't automatcally tell my arm and leg to respond. I have to THINK about it. So it sometimes tenses up. But I think I did mention something about my CP before in a previous post.
 Back to November...

   So ya, its gonna start getting cold and I am not looking forward to that. I can't wait to see my friend. Well I guess I'm gonna go to bed. My Girls (Yorkies- Macie and Ellie) I dont have any kids ;) lol are already asleep and I want to get to my book. I'm reading the 4th book of Anne of Green Gables, called Anne of Windy Poplars..
Good Night~

Not very interesting

 So basically I didn't do much today. I stood home and worked around the house and watch Netflix. ("more on the Netflix" ;) ) I mostly been day dreaming at times then doing anything else, mostly at night when I'm going to bed. Macie and Ellie were my companions of the day. They are my two yorkies. Recently my 10 year old yorkie Rocky passed way. I miss him so much. I had him since I was 11 and he was 6 weeks old. Well enough of that we'll see what going on another time..
See ya!

What every girl wants to hear....

My favorite quote from this book and and movie. Made me fall for Zac Efron all over again. ;)

Life without dance..

I have been dancing since I was 13 years old at California Dance Company. Although I don't do ballet, I love the above picture. I love any type of dance. It's a wonderful feeling to be graceful and show every emotion through dance. I currently dance hip hop and jazz, but in the near future I would like to take Ballet and Lyrical. Also ballroom and latin ballroom. If I didn't have a disablity I would probably do more and attend an art school but I have mild Cerebral Palsy, so it's hard to do everything that a normal dancer would do. I just do my best. If I wasn't able to do dance there would be no real physical activity in my life that interest me. So I'm thankful for the ability to what I can do. Those who have seen me dance think I'm quite good.

How Can I Tell You

The most recent song I wrote....
                                                How Can I Tell You?
                                       
                                                         Oh.. Whoa
I'm used of keeping my feelings to myself, and it hurts so bad to keep them in.. Everytime I see you my heart just stops, and my mind goes blank, All I hear is the footsteps you are taking right in front of me,
                                                   (Chorus)
Everytime I see you, I dream that you'd say the words I want to hear, I've been falling from the start, I just want to tell you now, I'm afraid of distruction, Oh How Can I Tell You?

I couldn't believe when I found out myself, that this happening, it feels so complicated, and sometimes I argue with myself, If I told you now then my conscience would then freak out, Then I'd feel regret
                                                         (Chorus)
And it goes on and on, and on..
Instead of letting it all out, I always kept it in, I guess thats what it's like to have a sudden crush, You are my sudden rush, Oh how can I tell you of what I feel...?
                                                         (Chorus)
Oh how can I tell you?

Dear Jesse

     Jesse McCartney has been part of my life since I was 13 years old. I am now 21. Or you could say since I was eight. I just didnt realize it until I was 13. This is because when I was eight Jesse was part of the boy band Dreamstreet. They weren't as popular as NSYNC or Backstreet Boys but I knew who they were. I actually liked Jesse the best than too. It wasn't until I first heard Jesse's first single Beautiful Soul on my That's So Raven CD, and reading about him in Tiger Beat Magazine. I eventually became a big fan of his after that. I've gone to two concerts feat. Him and Jordin Sparks. He is an amazing performer and doesnt lip syn like most artist do now a days.
         Like most fans I have fantasized meeting him and also singing with him. This is why I am also going to share with you a song I wrote for Jesse. I am not like most fans who would be obsessive over a star, they are human too. Anyways here is Dear Jesse. It was also inspired by Britney Spears' "Dear Diary."

Dear Jesse
By: Sandra Cruz

Dear Jesse..

I've been waiting for a day, when you lay your eyes on me..
This is all I have to say, you kept my dreams alive..
Just hearing your name makes me cry,
because you don't know whats inside my heart..
Every day I see you smile, You seem so happy,
A beautiful soul to me...
So let me be the one..

Dear Jesse,
my feelings are so strong,
I try to push them away..
So can I have a clue,
And I wonder, Will this ever go away..
Jesse can I be more than a fan,
yeah yeah
Can we have something more?

Jesse understand there is so much that I can do,
My heart starts to ache when I think of you,
I don't want to seem so deperate, but I can't help but be,
Jesse, I'm waiting for a day when I can be so much more..
than your fan...

INTRODUCTION

   Writing for me tends to get things out in the open and relieves the things that is on my mind. I also tend too get inspired by things and modivated to write a poam, song, or story. The only problem is that at most times I get busy with other stuff and have to come back to it. This happens a lot when I'm in the middle of a song or story. Like right now I am in the middle of two storys/novels, one in the works, and a song that I can't finish. I will post the song soon. I also keep a diary. It helps me to release the things that are bottled up in my mind when I can't tell anyone else.
              Anyways, I you will enjoy my blog page and I look forward to your comments...